According to Yonhap TV on Tuesday, Moonbin was found dead at his home in Gangnam-gu, Seoul at 8:10 p.m. on April 19.
As a result, his interview with Arena Homme Plus in April last year has been resurfacing. However, some online communities have been circulating edited versions of the interview, spreading theories that he was mentally unstable long before his death. However, the full transcript of the interview reveals that he was in a rather healthy state at the time.
He was a natural artist who wrote essays in his spare time and was always looking for inspiration. His sensitive and emotional nature is evident in this interview.
In the interview, he said that he likes to keep records and hopes to one day publish essays illustrated with his paintings. He surprised us by revealing that he had collected 130 essays by the time of the interview. He is a passionate person who sees inspiration in everyday life and connects it to music.
His passion for recording had a lot to do with his naturally emotional nature. When asked, “Do you like to express your feelings,” he replied, “I don’t like it, I just record it. I capture the air, the mood, the emotions of the day. But I don’t express it directly. I liken it to other things. For example, I would compare the emotions of the day to a green tree.”
Above all, he was a true artist. He was always curious about the world and didn’t take the smallest elements of everyday life for granted. When asked if this creative habit influences his work, he replied, “Yes. It affects me as an artist and as a guest. When I write, I always imagine to condense meaning into metaphors. That imagination helps me a lot when I’m on stage and when I’m acting.”
On the other hand, there are times when his imagination can be a poison, and he admits that “there are times when I enjoy it so much that it can have a negative effect.”
“If I daydream too much, I imagine the worst,” he says. When I feel anxious, I know I should stop, but it keeps coming back and I make mistakes. It’s a negative, but the positive outweighs the negative when you stop daydreaming,” he said.
That doesn’t mean he was always mentally unstable; in fact, he was mentally healthy at the time. He wasn’t afraid of change, and he was always willing to work on the things that were holding him back.
“I used to be a perfectionist,” he says. “It’s so hard to be a perfectionist. All day long, I’m thinking about my mistakes, and it doesn’t make me better. I’m trying to be perfect, and I don’t have enough time. If you don’t have enough time to be satisfied and you want to fix it, you’re just asking for luck. You have to learn to let go. It’s great to prepare perfectly, but there’s always something left to be desired,” he said.
He continued, “I think (letting go of perfectionism) has given me a much broader perspective. I’m able to look outward instead of inward, and I listen to people more. If they say it’s really good, I know it’s good. I waste less time. I know how to fill my free time with the things I love, and I don’t lose sight of the forest when I’m focused on the immediate.” He was a man who knew how to take care of himself.
According to his agency Fantagio, Moonbin‘s funeral will be held as quietly as possible, with only family members and colleagues in attendance, in accordance with the wishes of the bereaved family. Moonbin’s final resting place is at Asan Medical Center Funeral Home in Seoul. The wake is scheduled for 8 a.m. on April 22.